as within...so without.

there are some people you will meet....date....marry....who do not know how to love.

you will assume they love like you do....they do not.  This can be a shock when you discover this...that not only do they not share your deep love....but they are only capable of surface love....which is filled with fear...fear of love...fear of knowing themselves....a whole mess of fear.

they will not be able to go any deeper with you.  you will assume that people can all love at the same depths...

this is not true.  I have only just discovered this.

you will build something with them.....and slowly...they will brick by brick dismantle the place of love you tried to create... you will look at your progress and see chunks of the foundation missing...and they will tell you....nothing is missing there....and if it feels like it is....you must have been the one to do it.


they will lay down track...a track of disillusionment that carries you so far away from yourself...yet announce at every stop that you are at some kind of Love station.... the words will be there...yet at every stop...you feel a growing emptiness.

all of this will make your head spin.....until it all stops....and you get off the train.

some people can't love...but they will make you think you are being loved....you are not.

and then....

you will meet someone who loves you....someone who loves you with no agenda...they love you just because they love you....

you will thrive and grow.

you will discover yourself...and find out that you are so full of love....that you have so much love to give others....


you will also find out that the person who took you far away from love.....does that to others as well.

it wasn't just you....you weren't crazy.

and then you heal.

and you love....


and people see you shine and notice.

and for the first time...in a very long time...


you feel the deepest love...because it is inside you and nobody can take it away.

as within, so without...as above, so below.


peace

and love...