I won't give up....

(warning, coarse language. :)



I've been driving for two and a half days....across prairies...thankfully avoiding road hazards....to come here.

i'm back!!!

I drove with two crazies....to come visit my Mom...who, has kind of.....shut off the world...and has given up on anything being better for her.....

I'm going to try to change that.....


I've been thinking about this blog along the way.....driving...you have a lot of time...I listened to some great music...and every single mile had a painting in it.

I looked out the windows....mentally painted landscape after landscape...mixing just the right tone of yellow ochre to convey...

the golden honey glazed fields illuminated by the setting sun.....

and powder blue skies....filled with stripes of clouds....fields polka dotted with black cows....

and I thought of ways to.....resuscitate a life....how do you breathe life into a person who is breathing?  

I wish there was an easy answer.  

originally...this post was going to be called, Someone Saved my life....after the Elton John song....because....I truly believe someone saved my life a few times on this road trip....

but now...

it's all about this song...by Jason Mraz.

When I look into your eyes, 
it's like watching the night sky
or a beautiful sunrise
well, there's so much they hold
and just like them old stars, 
I see that you've come so far
to be right where you are...
how old is your soul? 


I won't give up on us
even if the skies get rough
i'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
and when you're needing your space
to do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
to see what you find...

...I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily 
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use 
the tools and the gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
and in the end, you're still my friend, at least we did intent
for us to work, we didn't break, we didn't burn...
we had to learn how to bend without the world caving in, 
I had to learn 
what I've got
and what I'm not
and who I am.

so, yes....here I am.... trying to save a life....breathing some life into a world that is low on oxygen....



and something key she said to me today...when I asked her...about- typical kid behavior....and how...Zoey was asking me over and over and over if we could go do something....

my Mom said,

"Kelly, as a kid...you would never take 'no' for an answer" .....

well, she should know then.....I won't really give up...


also....driving for two days....and quick gas station stops....meant no veggies....by today, all i wanted was this... (threadless.com shirt design, Raw Truth)

peace and love...and not giving up and being one determined mo fo, my whole life...which will probably bring me to part B of this blog. :)  I know...it's been awhile. I have a lot to catch up on...