so....I've been thinking about this post for a while now....and before you settle in....just...I can assure you...I'm not a crazy person. :) I have a Ph.D....so....I mean....at least I somewhat have a reasonable appreciation for scientific methods...and can analyze stuff, right?
I got a concussion in February....and I think it knocked something....loose? or maybe....right back in place.
soon after that....a few weeks later...when I think my brain was healing....I felt something really weird.....it was like....
the feeling of riding on a roller coaster....but....right at that moment....before...or maybe the instant when you drop...the weightless feeling....elation....exhilaration....but more than that....it was pure bliss...it was better than...anything...ever....and it was so amazing....I remember having morphine when I was in labor...giving birth to a tiny human...and it was....way better... every cell was....happy...and blissed the heck out....
and that feeling of weightlessness....just...wow. until I have to get kids ready for school....at which time...I will occasionally lose my shit...as most parents do.
or when I'm trying to find my toothbrush....(who loses their own toothbrush?)
or like this morning...when I was trying to find the english muffins....who the heck loses english muffins??!!!!
( I lose everything....but I can do this......)
back to bliss...
I had to google on my phone to look it up...kind of weird...googling 'bliss'....and trying to figure out why I felt as high as a kite....for no reason...the closest thing I guess I found was something about kundalini awakening? and I'm not a Yogi...so....I'm not really sure about that...
it was a few weeks later or so...I don't remember...but I felt it again...mostly when I was kind of meditative....listening to music and listening to steady breathing rhythms of sleeping beauties and just....relaxing....letting thoughts meander....
and...more and more....I can get there. It's not far from me....which I love. yeah, sure...I can be a cranky freaky person when I'm trying to get kids ready for school and nobody is listening...yeah- it's not like I'm a saint....
believe me....I can get cranky sometimes.... it's not like I'm walking around the woods with butterflies and fairies following me around...as I whistle and hum beautiful melodies. :) gently tossing flower petals on the ground I walk on...
but then...the sun shines....the music is perfect....and.....and bam. bliss town....
and when I say it....or write it....it feels weird....it sounds weird....but maybe someone else gets it too...
and that's why I'm here....I read on a blog...this guy...all talking hope and cool stuff....and he calls himself, a dot connector.... yeah. I like that. I'm a dot connector....yeah...like....stop here....grab a bite....rest....feel some love...and go out and throw that love...to the next dot. that...is fantastic. connecting dots.
oh...right...super powers.... since the concussion....I paint....better than I ever have....I don't recommend getting a concussion....I'm just sayin..... it's like....my brain healed and rewired or something... and I sense things differently....yeah...tastes and smells and colors....like....when the dude woke up after being bitten by the crazy ass lab spider.....
and sometimes...I feel like I actually can fly. (wink)...in fact...if I could...I'd be a fairy...with sorel boots...flying around....sprinkling love dust on everyone. :) that's right....I said it. I don't have a jaded or cynical bone in my body....and that's just how I like it...tenaciously positive....and THAT is how things get changed. :)
and connecting dots...which is a super power...all it's own.
so....here's to PEACE...and LOVE...and....flying....higher than a kite....to the moon....and back...and....bliss....and my boots...because I love those things....
#love
#boots
#watercolors
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