yeah...I know...and I have no idea where I'm exactly going with this but....I guess let's just sit back and figure it out together.
there's a song by Florence and the Machine...Cosmic Love...it kind of just grabs my heart with both hands and doesn't let go until the song fades out with the plinking of piano keys and maybe some plunks from a harp.....
and with the last plink....let's my heart go....so abruptly...I just kind of sit there for a second wondering what the hell just happened. some songs are just like that....
the stars.....the moon...they have all been blown out....you left me in the dark.
no dawn, no day...I'm always in this twilight...in the shadow of your heart.
and as I write this...I realize....I do this thing where....when I'm concentrating on painting....or when I'm writing something...I'm trying to figure out...like....writing my dissertation....I pause...grab a handful of hair and hold it up to my mouth...it's weird...but it's what I do...it comforts me...and makes me...touch something real when i'm floating around in my thoughts, i guess? i dunno....it's just what I do.
and so...anyway....
back to Florence....oh...and the Machine.
I took the stars from my eyes, and then I made a map
and knew that somehow I could find my way back,
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too,
So I stayed in the darkness with you.
I am SO gonna make a point...soon......ish.
ok, here goes.....what I think is so amazing about this song is the raw heat of the lyrics...pure....love.
cosmic love...in fact. like....being completely in the dark....but not feeling alone...or lonely...just feeling pure, cosmic, love, universal love...because you aren't alone. ever.
sometimes....it's ok to be in the dark. remember, darkness makes you use your peripheral vision...which is way better when you want to follow your intuition. (see, darkness, October 31 blog). and sometimes we have to be in the dark...to notice how bright and brilliant the light is. :)
and atomic commit? it's simply....an operation that requires a set of distinct changes for the single operation...a whole bunch of stuff has to happen for the single operation and if all things happen....then the atomic commit was successful....but if something gets effed within the set, before the commit is completed....all things get reversed....pre-commit.
the thing with atomic commits.....they have to coordinate between multiple systems....tricky stuff...coordinating between multiple systems....
how do these things relate? all things under the sun are related....in some way- just gotta find the link....but I think atomic commits are essential for things that require multiple steps...multiple changes between systems....and I'm pretty sure, given a second more, I could turn this into some spiritually charged uplifting message- you know....one that includes love...and peace...patience...and dreams.
maybe you need to make a series of changes between your ego and your heart....things that need to transfer and get rid of, and all these changes between systems, need to happen almost simultaneously to be really successful for really truly following your true path....true self...and true dreams...because if the necessary changes....only half happen....before the commit is completed....it's a no go....and it's complicated....but necessary for the ultimate happiness. holy crap. and dreams...you know....dreams...i mentioned this before, but you dream and imagine in your conscious mind...which then gets transferred to your unconscious- goal attaining mind...(atomic commit-like) and then....bam. dreams come true...
you gotta imagine the possibilities....and let your heart open to them....and sit back and watch the magic fly...and feel the cosmic love unfold around you.
oh yeah...i forgot to mention....I'm a dream fairy....one with brass balls. that's right... I said it. I make dreams happen.... sometimes you have to toss caution to the wind and reach for the stars...sometimes? wait....
no.
all times. all times...you should reach for the stars.
hippy enough for you? my husband thinks i'm a weird hippy a-hole. :) ha!
peace and love and cosmic love and atomic commits.
No comments:
Post a Comment