macrothumia...a minor form of despair, a virtue in disguise

the word for 'patience' in Greek is, macrothumia, which means long-burning....aka, you have a long ass fuse...and can endure a lot- aka, long-suffering.   

also,
the quality of being willing to bear adversities, calm endurance of misfortune.....suffering, etc.

from Latin, patientia, endurance, submission, also submission to lust...from patientem- bearing, supporting, enduring, tolerant, but also- firm, unyielding, hard- used of persons as well as of navigable rivers...

(etymonline.com)

patience...

also said, a minor form of despair....or a disguised virtue....well, how about that?   hey, patience is a virtue... hey- good job for suffering so long!  :)   hahaha, that's bullshit.


we endure....longsuffering....don't we?   eff that.


like.....the three and a half minute excruciating song you can't turn off...


I've been meaning to go check out these new watercolor paints by Daniel Smith....ever since I saw someone's blog, testing out a wash of Lunar Blue.   I was hooked....

and finally....I went today to a proper art store....it has been awhile since I've been....and it felt good....

it felt SO GOOD not to walk into Michaels for art supplies....like....an assassin going into some high-tech spy geek store, or walking into Q's lab....after spending way too much time having to deal with Cabela's or some subpar place.... you get the idea.  of course you do.  :)


anyway....

I had to restrain myself.  


a lot.


and I ended up getting a few that I thought would be fun.....and these paints....I took them for a spin tonight.....

and it was.....like Q had handed me some crazy ass contraption.....it takes a bit of time to figure out....hahahaha, sometimes you pull the wrong trigger and shit backfires....

these paints have real crushed up minerals in them....like hematite....HEMATITE?   shimmer....

SHIMMER.....


and dangerous.  

peace...and love...and new watercolors....which completely blow my mind.