The Odyssey

Here is my blog.  I'm not sure what the purpose is, but maybe provide me with clarity...maybe help another who stumbles upon it...


#all in or nothing - Adidas 

That is perfect.  That is how I feel lately....although sometimes it is hard to do.

This may be a bunch of ramblings....I guess it is my blog...so- I can make it ramble or not...so...there it is- sometimes ramblings, sometimes not.

In May, the day before we left to go on a trip to Hawaii- I was picking the kids up from schools...Jude at one pre-school, then off to get Zoey at her school....and then we had to take the dog to Cochrane to the kennel.  It was a very hectic day....lots to do....cluster f*ck galore.... After I picked up Zoey we were headed out of town...and as we drove, Zoey started talking to me.  Of course- I was in a million places in my head...and driving...and well- I did the typical thing- and started to disregard what she was saying... not being present.  And then she repeated what she was saying and something clicked in my head...."whoa, wait...what???"  and so patiently...she repeated, which quite possibly could have been her 5th time trying to reach me.  I listened- finally.  She said, "Mom, what does- E-M-B or D- A-R-K, spell?"   as I drove, I said,  "where do you see that word?"  I knew from the way she was spelling it out, that she could actually see what she was reading.  She replied, "it's up there- in the sky."  So, as I looked out the window- trying to stay on the road, I anticipated seeing a banner or some weird thing in the sky....I saw nothing.   I asked her again, "Where???"  and she said, " It's up there- in the sky- it is written with big letters- in the clouds."

Ya.

And so that was weird.  I knew that we were going to Hawaii.  I knew I hadn't actually used that phrase with her, like- "hey Zoey, we are going to embark on a trip."

so.  that was kinda.....wow.  She also said, "It actually says- Embark on an Adventure"

And so later on- after I really questioned her about the letters, how big, what they said, etc.....I asked a friend of mine (reiki healer-person....ya- that's right)- "Ummmmm, what does that mean??"

She said- "you are going on a journey, and it ain't to Hawaii."

Which brings me to...   I am on a spiritual journey.  I did not sign up for this journey.... in the beginning....I just kind of....found myself on it.  So here I am....and it is just awesome....and sometimes not so awesome.....but when it is awesome....there is nothing like it- ever.  ever.  Ever.  and so like Homer's Odyssey....there are tests of perseverance...but...it is worth it.

So, if you are here to read about it and have an open mind....welcome.   Even if you have many filters that prevent you from believing any of this....welcome.  I am not a crazy person. :)
I just know that somehow....I'm finally "getting" it- and not getting it at the same time.  Also, everything makes perfect sense....and then nothing makes sense.  But that is OK.  


love......